考试双周

current mood.

不知不觉已置身在学期末，
现在正是考试周，上了复习课觉得充实很多，
虽然还有很多没跟上，
但至少在内部考试犯错好过大考的时候还糊里糊涂的。

毫无理由的开始对金融学感兴趣，
大概是近几个星期都在接触它吧？
觉得学习来蛮有意思，
可能我比较爱钱？
尽管起初学习的时候会很困难，
久了知道诀窍和用意在哪里，
就会很想发掘更多。

考试后才大选呢，
不能延迟考试好像有点失望？
（大选管你啥事）

有位很久没聊天的网友昨晚找我说话，
她说之前几个月离开了网络，
很专注高中学业和日常生活，
参加了很多学校的活动，
跟朋友亲近了。
后来觉得对生活厌倦了，
喜欢的男孩子不喜欢自己了，
学习闷了，
考完试了，
开始很想念泰民了，
因为觉得全世界只有泰民不会离开她哈哈（有同感喏），
然又重新回到虚拟的网络生活。

正当我决定慢慢离开的时候，
朋友们都渐渐回来网络上。
她们不让我离开，毕竟都认识4年了，
但是现实生活中有很多值得我去追求的，
还有很多未达到的目的。
以前还小，没有背负责任，
喜欢在网络上呆多久就呆多久，
但后来发现，就算一天有48小时，
我也已经不能将绝大部分的时间用来上网，
搜索关于key的一切更新或保存每一张图片。

当我告诉她明年开始我会渐渐离去然后消失在网络上，
她马上阻止，她并没有要我逃避责任的意思，
但告诉我至少不要消失无踪，
因为虚拟的友情就是这样脆弱，
往往经历了很多，有很多共同的美好回忆，
要消失不见的时候却谈何容易，
而且一旦离开了，要再寻回就很难，
毕竟是生存在不同的国度，
我们唯一的联络方式就只有网络，
要是一个走了，
隔着南中国海，要怎么找呢？

我能了解她的不舍，
大家渐渐长大，从以前喜欢shinee的一群小妹妹，
变成了现在的高中/学院甚至大学生，
我们有时候真的要面对生活的一切，
责任感是一定要有的，
不能为了网络而舍弃一切，
这样对寄托很大希望在你身上的人很不公平。

我说无论如何，我都不会轻易忘记她和她们，
我认识了她们整整4年，虽然素未谋面，
但是较轻甚深，就像真实的朋友一样，
就算到很多年以后，回想起在网络上的点滴，
我也一定会觉得我以前的生活很开心充实，
因为有了解我的朋友陪我一起度过。
就这样成了我生活中的部分插曲。

很多人都在等我忘记shinee，忘记key，
4年建立起来的感情和仰慕，
我觉得没有那么容易被涂抹。
他们存在了5年，我就听足他们的歌4年，
1年的遗憾就让它涂抹掉吧，
但后面那4年，还有未来更多的4年，
一直到他们决定不唱歌为止，
我都会一直听他们唱歌。
不，是永远都会听他们的歌。

呃，是考试周吼，
怎么那么感性那么多废话啊？
哈哈，下线读书去！

加油！

每个结束，意味着另一个开始

说快不快，已经是这学期的最后一个星期了，
接下来要面对的除了考试和考试以外，
还有kononnya很重要的revision classes，
可以想象到一大堆功课要做的场景了（我哭）。

之前以为不上韩文课可以让自己有更多时间温习，
哈哈，什么嘛。现在的计划改变了！
外语照学，功课照做，时间分配好了就可以很充实。
4月30号起很可能会分心，
所以现在开始准备准没错！

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一直以来都很喜欢喝咖啡，
上星期和朋友出去的时候初尝星巴克，
热黑糖玛琪朵，外加两包白糖（甜死你），
不知道是不是品牌和价钱（还有那两包糖）的关系，
甜甜香香的，挺好味道。

可是真的有点贵 T_T

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130413
这天，跟一群中学好友聚在一起，
看电影、喝咖啡、晚餐，
难得一聚，话题还真的很多。
发现朋友们都经历了许多，个性也变得成熟了，
大家上大学以后都各自有各自的生活，
要招5个以上的人数还真难。

朋友啊，虽然这么多年来见面次数少了，
但是一碰面却无所不聊，
真的很珍惜我们建立起来的好关系。
约好了2个多月后再聚，到时再见咯！

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无意间去搜索这首让我爱上IU的歌曲，
去年已经很喜欢这首歌，昨天才去看翻译。
我的天。
sweet到..............!!!

是首情歌，歌词大概就是说对喜欢的对象的迷恋，
外表、嗓音、动作等等的都会让人发疯。
我一直以为她是在形容自己喜欢的对象，
歌词里面提及“白滑的皮肤”和“修长的双腿”，
应该是喜欢美男子对吧？
所以听着听着，脑子里竟然浮现了金基范的影子（喂）。

后来才发现，创作和演唱的时候，
IU想着的对象，竟然是她的好朋友Sulli！
所以是以男生的POV来唱咯？
还是其实Sulli是她女生中的理想型（喂！）。

反正就是一首很好听，很甜，很舒服的一首歌。
很想念IU，自去年爆出丑闻后都没有新作品，
希望她可以快点回来歌坛，
偶像风靡的时代，青少年女歌手还可以那么出众，
真的很难得。

真心推荐!



是时候学习唱这首歌了~
（（把歌词留在这里））

자꾸 눈이 가네 하얀 그 얼굴에
질리지도 않아 넌 왜

슬쩍 웃어줄 땐 나 정말 미치겠네
어쩜 그리 예뻐 babe

뭐랄까 이 기분
널 보면 마음이 저려오네 뻐근하게 

오 어떤 단어로 널 설명할 수 있을까
아마 이 세상 말론 모자라

가만 서 있기만 해도 예쁜 그 다리로
내게로 걸어와 안아주는 너

You know he’s so beautiful
Maybe you will never know

내 품에 숨겨두고 나만 볼래
어린 마음에 하는 말이 아니야
꼭 너랑 결혼할래

오 어떤 단어로 널 설명할 수 있을까
아마 이 세상 말론 모자라

가만 서 있기만 해도 예쁜 그 다리로
내게로 걸어와 안아주는 너 

몇 번을 말해줘도 모자라
오직 너만 알고 있는
간지러운 그 목소리로
노래 부를 거야 나 나 나 나

자꾸 맘이 가네 나 정말 미치겠네

On.

I realize the test week is less than 2 weeks from now, but it feels like the last test was just yesterday :/

Well that sucks.

I don't hate having test but I hate the pressure they're giving us.

Anyway, since I can't change the fact that I'm in this position, I'll have to set my Korean lessons aside, probably be absent in the next few classes so that I can concentrate in my studies. Not to mention I had terrible marks for the previous test in March.

And yes, I got lectured. Again.

I'm not down, I am definitely not a negative person, so a terrible test score won't affect me however it kind of makes me push myself further.  Here we go, past year papers, I know auditing answers is not a good way to learn but that's the only option for a dumb person like ME.

♫ What doesn't kill you makes you stronger ♫



LOL This is not Kelly Clarkson's song, no. It's something that always makes me feel emotional despite not understanding half of the lyrics at the first time of listening. 1 Out Of 100 by Jonghyun. Dude I've missed you :(

/whispers to myself/ hwaiting!

han guk mal

So recently I've started to learn Korean (for real), I don't take classes, but I joined the Korean Club in my college, they offer some simple lessons once in a week, not really helpful though-because I'm slightly more advance than them tbH-

Books and audio clips could help too, but the biggest problem right now is that I'm learning it alone, I find it boring and difficult at the same time because I can't practice my pronunciation or no one will correct me if I'm wrong etc etc.

That's why I have to un-antisocial myself to join a freaking club T_T

Anyway, the easiest way to learn is to listen and speak more, in my opinion. I listen to Korean a lot but I don't speak(I have no opportunity to!!), so I choose to sing instead hahaha. Currently I'm learning how to sing this simple song, I'm Fine Thank You And You? by 10cm. I read through the lyrics without looking at the translations and surprisingly I can understand half of the song. \^o^/



너의 얘길 들었어
너는 벌써 30평에 사는구나
 난 매일 라면만 먹어
나이를 먹어도 입맛이 안 변해

I’m fine thank you thank you and you
우리 옛날에 사랑을 했다니 우스워

좋은 차를 샀더라
네가 버릇처럼 말한 비싼 차
나도 운전을 배워
이리도 어려운 건지 모르고

I’m fine thank you thank you and you
우리 옛날에 사랑을 했다니 우스워

 나는 정말로 괜찮아 행복해
내 걱정 말고 잘살아

I’m fine thank you thank you and you
우리 옛날에 사랑을 했다니 우스워

~~여러분 우리 함게 이 노래가....(shit i can't continue)~~

 Whatever it is, let's sing it together one day haha.

Comeback entry #2

Well I guess I'll need to say HI!!

Wow it's been quite a while since I was still active in blogging! I actually came on here once in a blue moon, scrolling through my past entries, and I do realize how embarrassing I was back then-not to mention I'm still an embarrassment now-anyway, it's not like I'm ashamed of myself or anything, it just shows that I've been being myself since forever ;)

College kind of sucks, but I love how it keeps me busy, like finally I can feel how is it like to become a human who actually has a life. Nothing's worse than ACCA, to be quite honest. But I don't hate it? I like how my lecturer tells us to love what we're doing, no matter how much we feel tired, or feeling sick of anything, as long as we have a heart for our job, that's what it matters. Yeah, so I'm learning to like what I'm doing, well at least not to hate it.

Hiding the fact that I've been failing my tests since last semester, even though I tried finishing every question. Luckily I always get messed up in college but not in the real exam =v= I'll make sure I pass my external exams, so no worries. Internal tests are just practice, for me, it's the time to get myself familiar with the exam style and be prepared for finals.

Basically my life right now consists of college + acca + exams, it's boring. God bless SHINee's existence HAHAHAHA.

Financial Management and Performance Management are the two papers I'm sitting for, this June, and I heard those are 2 out of 4 of the toughest papers in the F level omg?? Nothing surprised, 2 more awaiting for me next semester, then I'm officially done with the skill modules, yay? I hope it's a real YAY when I finish the 2 papers this June though.

I think I should blog in English rather than Chinese =v= I feel old when I write in Chinese, I DON'T KNOW WHY!!

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By the way, I haven't wished Jonghyun a Happy Birthday on here T_T Poor boy, he just got into a car accident last week and he broke his perfect nose :( I sincerely wishing him all the best in 2013, please don't get him hurt anymore, because his heart is so soooo fragile. And yeah, his tweet on his birthday almost makes me burst into tears :'(

Anyway, happy birthday belated Kim Jonghyun, stay healthy, stay happy, stay cute and stay sexy. ke.

하트!! ㅎㅅㅎ)/♥ 

变

相隔4个月，我又回来了。URL改了，版面设计换了，年龄、心情、思想变了。

看回我前几篇发的文章，哈哈，笑自己华文退步了不少啊。不是玩笑的笑，是苦笑的笑。之前想说，进一个私立大学，选修一个专业文凭，说不定英语会变好，社交圈子可以广阔些，认识一下和自己的背景完全不一样的人。

大错特错？？

我承认一开始有点冲动，做事不怎么考虑，没有作最坏打算或什么的。可是往另一方面想，这决定没有错，虽然是冲动和仓促了一些，但何尝不是件好事？成长的过程中不是每个决定都是错误或意外，而是视乎你自己如何作出改变和应变，就算以当下的立场来看那决定是愚蠢的，它依然会是个好决定。

怎么说呢？简单来讲，就是从错误中学习。我不是在承认自己为将来做了不对的选择（在“大错特错”后面是两个问号哦），而是有时觉得不知道怎么解释的不合适，两年来虽然好险地渡过了，但到头来仍然觉得缺少了什么。

想了又想，原来是缺少了一些疯癫。缺少了一些年轻的回忆。我只能说，我为将来准备得有点早。成熟得太快，以我现在的立场来想，并不是一件骄傲的事。少了年少轻狂，人生就永远有个缺口，装着空白的记忆画面。

18、19岁真的很年轻，但是我19岁那年有一半的岁月，都花在思考如何在读书与玩乐之间找一个平衡点。19岁，什么都不知道的年龄，我已经在学专业课程，讲师要我幻想自己是一个上市公司的Finance Manager或者CEO，解决一个公司的税务和财务问题等等。

我连自己的理财方式都还没弄好，你要我幻想自己在管理一个上市公司？在skill还不成熟的情况之下，你还让我很质疑自己的knowledge咯。因为学习不能只一味靠书本，我现在反而很羡慕那些有的参与practical或者training的朋友们，这样才是我最喜欢的学习模式T_T。Hands on learner，我应该是这类的。可是哪里有公司肯让你这个没有skill的笨蛋来做practical？

但是没办法，我的决定，要我在书中自找黄金屋。哈哈，乱来。

反正就是要应变嘛，有惊无险，2科及格了，距离学士学位还有4科以及一篇论文，倘若也是有惊无险的话，过多1年半，我就是一个大学毕业生了（还没有专业资格，professional level exam还有另外5科，我的妈呀）。我嫌毕业得早。

反正两年来，经历的不算多（因为我疯癫的日子比同龄的来得少T_T），是有些不快乐的经历，但是也要谢谢那些let me down的人，多亏有你，让我发现原来永远不会伤害我的只有两个：我的家人还有金基范。

过去两年的负能量已经转为正能量咯！Think positive!

 Source of energy :)