不知道

假期就这样开始了。

考试之后开车与朋友到甲洞去吃韩国餐，

途中聊天时她们提到你（我在驾车耶……）

说你在这学期弃考试卷5，

我听见以后整个吓倒（不至于让车子失控啦……）

心里面想：如果你真的有弃考，

那么那天跟我坐同一排的是鬼吗？

不过知道你没有因为害怕不及格而弃考……

其实蛮高兴的。

你不知道很多事情，

我也不知道怎么把那些话变成文字。

不说好了。

Bad

烦死了。

111119 不是开始，而是结束，对吧？我不知道勇气是从哪里来，可是现在我后悔了。做不成朋友，更糟糕。

111120 情绪来了，什么都做不了，只能够自己一个人躲在家里哭。“不要轻易让自己掉眼泪，你笑，全世界跟着笑。你哭，全世界只有你一个人在哭” 为什么在我绝望的时候，让我看见这句话？

你们说我脾气坏，觉得我很讨厌这个家，可是我也是人，在家以外我有我自己的社交生活，外面发生什么事情，你们知道多少？你们自问了解我多少？那怪我不跟你们说好了。但是说了出来，你们会明白吗？说了出来，你们帮得了多少？

最近一直在听 Tablo 的歌曲，跟 Taeyang 合唱的 《Tomorrow》也很好听。两首都是悲伤心碎的歌曲啊……但现在的情况不至于那样。

Life as a fangirl

I'm like most of the fangirls out there, I lead a super broke life, forever poor and always buy only cheap food for lunch. I'm not as lucky as those rich girls, who can ask money from parent, just like asking for candies.

I feel jealous all the time.

When I see people got the merch/albums/photobooks that I really like.

When I see people get to attend their concert/fanmeet.

When I see Key gives too much fanservices(damn you Key, how dare you touch her face?!).

When I see Japanese fans get all the privileges.

When I see people showing off their official goods.

When I see people tend to collect fansites goodies just like collecting stones.

When I...ugh whatever.

I wonder where do they get the money tbh, they're like all middle scholars, they can't even work! Gurls, do you print cash or does your home have cash rain?!

I have full collection of SHINee's albums, exclude version Bs and Japanese premium albums. And I also have non-official Day & Night, tbh I feel so regret after buying that, I feel like I'm abusing the boys' hard work. Anyway, I already pre-ordered the re-print version, glad that I've found a site that sells it. It's pricey, but it really worth it!

Desperately in need of fanchat videos, so far I've only ~*~*master*~*~ Lucifer lol, and maybe Hello, Ring Ding Dong...well nothing else, gonna practice them as preparation jeje, I always believe the boys will be coming here one day :)

"Lee Jinki, Kim Jonghyun, Kim Kibum, Choi Minho, Lee Taemin, bitnaneun SHINee!"

I wonder what are the boys doing right now, they don't have any schedule today I guess? Poor Taemin, he wasn't able to sit for the college entrance exam due to tight schedules. ((But I really can't wait for The First OTL I'm so delusional))

Yes yes, another annoying post about SHINee again, I can't help but you have to deal with it.

复杂

说有梦见你，是假的。梦见SHINee倒是有好几次。

我承认我的脑袋很会制造画面，曾经幻想我们是好朋友，

虚构走去停车场那天之后的场面。

我有很多问题想要问你，

有许多谜团需要你为我解开。

我不想要因为想太多没有用的假设，

而弄到自己一脸不高兴的模样，没有胃口吃饭。

觉得靠近，又觉得遥远，

都怪自己不会和人打交道，不喜欢先开口说话。

我很记得你问过我的第一个问题，

那时候真的觉得很神奇，

你怎会知道那件事情的呢？

我有问，你没答。欠打哦？ㅎㅎㅎㅎ

有网友问我，我有多想要你？

我说，

我没有想过要得到你，可是，目前为止，

我只知道，我真的很喜欢你。

她说我恋爱了……哈哈，哪里。

now plaaying: i like you the best - beast

current mood: complicated desu

想

我想认识你

想更靠近你

想跟你说话

想教你做你不明白的功课

想在每天放学后，跟你一起走去停车场

想跟你一起吃午餐

想要给你传简讯

想要和你通电话

还是……

想要了解你多一点

Now playing: Hello - SHINee

Current mood: Refer to the lyrics of the song :)