Sunday, November 20, 2011

Bad

烦死了。

111119 不是开始,而是结束,对吧?我不知道勇气是从哪里来,可是现在我后悔了。做不成朋友,更糟糕。

111120 情绪来了,什么都做不了,只能够自己一个人躲在家里哭。“不要轻易让自己掉眼泪,你笑,全世界跟着笑。你哭,全世界只有你一个人在哭” 为什么在我绝望的时候,让我看见这句话?

你们说我脾气坏,觉得我很讨厌这个家,可是我也是人,在家以外我有我自己的社交生活,外面发生什么事情,你们知道多少?你们自问了解我多少?那怪我不跟你们说好了。但是说了出来,你们会明白吗?说了出来,你们帮得了多少?


最近一直在听 Tablo 的歌曲,跟 Taeyang 合唱的 《Tomorrow》也很好听。两首都是悲伤心碎的歌曲啊……但现在的情况不至于那样。

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Life as a fangirl

I'm like most of the fangirls out there, I lead a super broke life, forever poor and always buy only cheap food for lunch. I'm not as lucky as those rich girls, who can ask money from parent, just like asking for candies.

I feel jealous all the time.
When I see people got the merch/albums/photobooks that I really like.
When I see people get to attend their concert/fanmeet.
When I see Key gives too much fanservices(damn you Key, how dare you touch her face?!).
When I see Japanese fans get all the privileges.
When I see people showing off their official goods.
When I see people tend to collect fansites goodies just like collecting stones.
When I...ugh whatever.

I wonder where do they get the money tbh, they're like all middle scholars, they can't even work! Gurls, do you print cash or does your home have cash rain?!

I have full collection of SHINee's albums, exclude version Bs and Japanese premium albums. And I also have non-official Day & Night, tbh I feel so regret after buying that, I feel like I'm abusing the boys' hard work. Anyway, I already pre-ordered the re-print version, glad that I've found a site that sells it. It's pricey, but it really worth it!

Desperately in need of fanchat videos, so far I've only ~*~*master*~*~ Lucifer lol, and maybe Hello, Ring Ding Dong...well nothing else, gonna practice them as preparation jeje, I always believe the boys will be coming here one day :)

"Lee Jinki, Kim Jonghyun, Kim Kibum, Choi Minho, Lee Taemin, bitnaneun SHINee!"

I wonder what are the boys doing right now, they don't have any schedule today I guess? Poor Taemin, he wasn't able to sit for the college entrance exam due to tight schedules. ((But I really can't wait for The First OTL I'm so delusional))

Yes yes, another annoying post about SHINee again, I can't help but you have to deal with it.

Monday, November 14, 2011

复杂

说有梦见你,是假的。梦见SHINee倒是有好几次。

我承认我的脑袋很会制造画面,曾经幻想我们是好朋友,
虚构走去停车场那天之后的场面。
我有很多问题想要问你,
有许多谜团需要你为我解开。
我不想要因为想太多没有用的假设,
而弄到自己一脸不高兴的模样,没有胃口吃饭。

觉得靠近,又觉得遥远,
都怪自己不会和人打交道,不喜欢先开口说话。
我很记得你问过我的第一个问题,
那时候真的觉得很神奇,
你怎会知道那件事情的呢?
我有问,你没答。欠打哦?ㅎㅎㅎㅎ

有网友问我,我有多想要你?
我说,
我没有想过要得到你,可是,目前为止,
我只知道,我真的很喜欢你。
她说我恋爱了……哈哈,哪里。

now plaaying: i like you the best - beast
current mood: complicated desu


Sunday, November 13, 2011

我想认识你
想更靠近你
想跟你说话
想教你做你不明白的功课
想在每天放学后,跟你一起走去停车场
想跟你一起吃午餐
想要给你传简讯
想要和你通电话

还是……
想要了解你多一点

Now playing: Hello - SHINee
Current mood: Refer to the lyrics of the song :)

Saturday, November 12, 2011

That awkward moment when...

he's giving hot water to your best friend in a cold classroom, when you're just sitting next to her. LOL my previous post was about this to be honest, I get jealous easily, I have to admit it.

I wasn't angry anymore when you started playing around with my wallet and phone, but why did you open my wallet OTL. There were things that I didn't want to show ok.

Now playing: Always Love - SHINee
Current mood: Missing you.

2 weeks break is too long, well, maybe to me.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Jealousy

Yeah right, jelly baby.