不知道

假期就这样开始了。

考试之后开车与朋友到甲洞去吃韩国餐，

途中聊天时她们提到你（我在驾车耶……）

说你在这学期弃考试卷5，

我听见以后整个吓倒（不至于让车子失控啦……）

心里面想：如果你真的有弃考，

那么那天跟我坐同一排的是鬼吗？

不过知道你没有因为害怕不及格而弃考……

其实蛮高兴的。

你不知道很多事情，

我也不知道怎么把那些话变成文字。

不说好了。

Bad

烦死了。

111119 不是开始，而是结束，对吧？我不知道勇气是从哪里来，可是现在我后悔了。做不成朋友，更糟糕。

111120 情绪来了，什么都做不了，只能够自己一个人躲在家里哭。“不要轻易让自己掉眼泪，你笑，全世界跟着笑。你哭，全世界只有你一个人在哭” 为什么在我绝望的时候，让我看见这句话？

你们说我脾气坏，觉得我很讨厌这个家，可是我也是人，在家以外我有我自己的社交生活，外面发生什么事情，你们知道多少？你们自问了解我多少？那怪我不跟你们说好了。但是说了出来，你们会明白吗？说了出来，你们帮得了多少？

最近一直在听 Tablo 的歌曲，跟 Taeyang 合唱的 《Tomorrow》也很好听。两首都是悲伤心碎的歌曲啊……但现在的情况不至于那样。

Life as a fangirl

I'm like most of the fangirls out there, I lead a super broke life, forever poor and always buy only cheap food for lunch. I'm not as lucky as those rich girls, who can ask money from parent, just like asking for candies.

I feel jealous all the time.

When I see people got the merch/albums/photobooks that I really like.

When I see people get to attend their concert/fanmeet.

When I see Key gives too much fanservices(damn you Key, how dare you touch her face?!).

When I see Japanese fans get all the privileges.

When I see people showing off their official goods.

When I see people tend to collect fansites goodies just like collecting stones.

When I...ugh whatever.

I wonder where do they get the money tbh, they're like all middle scholars, they can't even work! Gurls, do you print cash or does your home have cash rain?!

I have full collection of SHINee's albums, exclude version Bs and Japanese premium albums. And I also have non-official Day & Night, tbh I feel so regret after buying that, I feel like I'm abusing the boys' hard work. Anyway, I already pre-ordered the re-print version, glad that I've found a site that sells it. It's pricey, but it really worth it!

Desperately in need of fanchat videos, so far I've only ~*~*master*~*~ Lucifer lol, and maybe Hello, Ring Ding Dong...well nothing else, gonna practice them as preparation jeje, I always believe the boys will be coming here one day :)

"Lee Jinki, Kim Jonghyun, Kim Kibum, Choi Minho, Lee Taemin, bitnaneun SHINee!"

I wonder what are the boys doing right now, they don't have any schedule today I guess? Poor Taemin, he wasn't able to sit for the college entrance exam due to tight schedules. ((But I really can't wait for The First OTL I'm so delusional))

Yes yes, another annoying post about SHINee again, I can't help but you have to deal with it.

复杂

说有梦见你，是假的。梦见SHINee倒是有好几次。

我承认我的脑袋很会制造画面，曾经幻想我们是好朋友，

虚构走去停车场那天之后的场面。

我有很多问题想要问你，

有许多谜团需要你为我解开。

我不想要因为想太多没有用的假设，

而弄到自己一脸不高兴的模样，没有胃口吃饭。

觉得靠近，又觉得遥远，

都怪自己不会和人打交道，不喜欢先开口说话。

我很记得你问过我的第一个问题，

那时候真的觉得很神奇，

你怎会知道那件事情的呢？

我有问，你没答。欠打哦？ㅎㅎㅎㅎ

有网友问我，我有多想要你？

我说，

我没有想过要得到你，可是，目前为止，

我只知道，我真的很喜欢你。

她说我恋爱了……哈哈，哪里。

now plaaying: i like you the best - beast

current mood: complicated desu

想

我想认识你

想更靠近你

想跟你说话

想教你做你不明白的功课

想在每天放学后，跟你一起走去停车场

想跟你一起吃午餐

想要给你传简讯

想要和你通电话

还是……

想要了解你多一点

Now playing: Hello - SHINee

Current mood: Refer to the lyrics of the song :)

That awkward moment when...

he's giving hot water to your best friend in a cold classroom, when you're just sitting next to her. LOL my previous post was about this to be honest, I get jealous easily, I have to admit it.

I wasn't angry anymore when you started playing around with my wallet and phone, but why did you open my wallet OTL. There were things that I didn't want to show ok.

Now playing: Always Love - SHINee

Current mood: Missing you.

2 weeks break is too long, well, maybe to me.

Jealousy

Yeah right, jelly baby.

thoughts

There's a quote saying "if a girl is quiet, there are millions of thoughts in her mind". I need to agree and disagree with this. Well, you know, I'm a girl, and yes I'm noisy sometimes, but I also have millions and billions of thoughts in my head all the time, not just when I'm quiet.

친구야 고맙다

:)

O_O

全都怪 SHINee。

短短 4 个月内发了 3 张单曲，还要是旧歌的日版，现在又来一张 full album 来给我，更来三个不同版本，不如杀了我吧……

为什么你们要那么棒？为什么我会喜欢你们？/sob/

花钱是会心痛啦，可是东西寄到家里来的时候还真的很兴奋呢。

沦陷了沦陷了，没得救了。朋友还说我们要买到 30 岁，我说不必到 30 岁啦，20 几就当兵了哈哈，然后我们都笑翻了。不知要开心好，还是伤心好。

日语首辑 The First 1123 发行也太突然了吧？那五只会不会都累坏了呢？在日本一定很辛苦，忙内在 11 月还有大学入学试，不知道有没有时间读书呢？

普通版- 13首歌曲，44页写真，随机成员卡片一张，大概113令吉

限定版 - 12首歌曲，68页写真，活动及花絮DVD，2012日历，大约 150 令吉

限定版 - 12首歌曲，88页写真（包括伦敦写真，我的天），mp3 player，活动及花絮DVD，2012 日历，大概240令吉。

本人是比较想买150那个，可是封面我比较喜欢240那个，铉Key耶！都搭肩膀了，拍摄都那么高调，可是价钱方面就太吓人了。他们在伦敦的生活写真一定很精彩 T___T

有关钥匙的事情就跟我有关，那家伙真的长不大，最出名的爱好就是收集玩具。我说钥匙啊，你收集玩具总动员，跟我收集关于你的一切，没有差别吧？

SHINee me2day 111017: [Key] Tada!! 范的世界！！

说那孩子永远5岁果然没有错。继续可爱下去吧！<3

************

我这个人没有什么不好，最糟糕的是，守自己的秘密一流。

不知道该怎么说啦。

改变

平常不怎么注意小事情的我，今晚不知为什么突然感性起来了。

这样就10月了。

老实说，除了年头挣了人生中的第一个一千块，还有在这学期连续考到两次90分以外，我好像都没有干过什么好事，或者任何有建设性的事情。

完全没有。

还有，华语退步绝对没办法开玩笑。这是要在私立大学念书的代价？借口。

未来专业会计师在此。（苦笑）

怎么看我都不觉得自己像个会计师，大概是因为我还处于那种“除了韩流以外什么都不管”的状态吧？我知道再这样我就死定的，但是……再让我任性几个月好吗？

开始想念老朋友的，估计没有人会找到这个部落格吧？毕竟换名字后都没有通知任何人。

其实我真的还是老样子。

依然喜欢大声笑。

依然喜欢作弄朋友们。

依然喜欢韩流。

依然喜欢白巧克力。

依然不喜欢读书。

依然喜欢钥匙。

那又怎样？环境变了，我的选择改变我的人生了。说来说去，还不是放不下那些你们所谓“不知道有什么好的整容怪物”。

改变自己的那天未必是现在，人是需要时间的。

[0923 Key's 20th Birthday] 20 reasons why ~*~*YOU*~*~

1. You teach me to be a good and responsible child to my parents.

2. You inspire me to care more about my external appearance in public. *forever fixing your clothes and hair*

3. You teach me to be caring to people around me.


4. You are so handsome. For sure.

5. And sexy. Duh.


6. You're so soft and loving, take good care of your pet puppy :D


7. You're very honest and straight-forward, and you never lie.

8. You are extremely amazing, duhh, you're the Almighty Key.

9. I love your voice. It's unique.


10. You're always mean to Jjong, and tease him a lot.


11. You're a true idol who cares about image in public. Well, kinda.

12. Your eyebrows. They were so thick back then :(


13. Diva-ish side of you.


14. Your randomness.


15. You'll be a good father for our children.


16. Ye, chef. Cook for me please?


17. Fashionable fab diva.


18. You always answer the fans, friendly kitty is friendly.

19. Thanks for going for the audition. I wouldn't have loved you if you didn't take the first step.

20. Because you are Kim Kibum.


I'm glad that you always have been working hard to chase your dream, thanks for being part of SHINee, thanks for providing so many awesome performances to us, thanks for appearing in my life and make me happy :) Oh, and thanks to Kibum's umma and appa for creating precious Key lol.


You have been getting skinnier day by day, I would beat you up if you say it's your fashion sense, please, don't you ever try thinking in that way, skinny doesn't mean fashionable anyway. I know you hate to hear this but still: EAT MORE. LOL whatever it is, just be the way you naturally are, that's most important. I'm so bipolar omg.


You've been doing well in Japan and I'm proud of you guys. You are so popular in Japan, people know you, people in Japan are more familiar with SHINee nowadays :D Your schedule is so packed, so don't forget to rest too ok.


Well, I don't have anymore wishes or hopes, or anymore higher expectations on you, you're awesome and successful enough in your age. The only thing I want is, you, Kim Kibum, to be happy, always.


Please make your 20th (21st in Korean age) year in life full of laughter and happiness and no tears :)

Oh by the way, no matter how old you are, to me, you're forever a 5-year-old cutie pie kitty :3 Please be a kitty forever, pleaseee?

And lastly, happy birthday Key. I love you.

110911

It was SHINee's concert in SG yesterday, /sighs/ I swear I could have been there if the progress test wasn't yesterday. Sobbing at all those JongKey moments, I must witness at least once in my life ok, that's too beautiful to miss out ;~;

Test was tough, but I got 90 out of 100 and I'm so proud of myself :D I love financial accounting till the max! So, see how am I gonna die for the rest of the papers, I haven't even started revising omg.

I have some thoughts, something that is too embarrassed to be told, but never mind, I'm really good in keeping my own secrets. Sometimes there are things that should be kept unknown forever, for my own good as well as the others, I don't want to hurt anyone, that's why. Friends are important to me.

I try not to make myself like that, but isn't it natural? I don't even know where the hell do I get that influence lol. Just...I'll try keep myself away from that thing, be normal, be normal...BE NORMAL.

We talk a lot recently, just...keep the distance, friend is friend.

Oh well, baby Key's birthday is coming :D Jjong said I love you to him during the concert, how sweet can that be, aww. I don't know what can I do for him, let's just hope that the Keytime DVD is still available and I'll buy it for sure!

Oh and the official photobook from Keytime, it's so tempting too :Q__ Keytime is the best!

Addiction is something that I can never overcome.

When you notice there are some changes happening to you, but it might not be acceptable by the people, what should you do? Or...what will you do?

Face it?

Hide it?

Ignore it?

Forget it?

Well, different direction is different. I'm always fine, just need a place to spit out my words, hi bloggie, I miss you so much...

Hi again

It's been a long time ago since my last update, wondering how's everyone now. 2011 seems so short to me, time passes so rapidly and I'm glad everything in life is fine.

College is...good? Accounting is so much better than pure science, 2 years of high school life wasted lol. People over here...hmm...besides my small group of friends, I dislike everyone else, especially people next class. Indirect bullying happens all the time and we are the one who got bullied.

When we remain silence, doesn't mean that we're weak ok, damn you bitchy people, fuck off from my life.

I have a new baby, nothing but Samsung Galaxy SL. Not S2 tho, that's too expensive. Am not a fan of Apple btw, stop asking me why don't I get the "smarter" iPhone. Android rocks ok, at least it's not as overrated/pricy as Apple stuffs.

I love the super huge screen of my phone, and all the special effect in the music player. And most importantly, those apps lol.

My SHINee collection is complete!! I have all albums of them(except all B versions sobs) with me and I have ordered two of the Japanese albums too, will post a photo of them if I have time. SHINee have taken over my life OTL, everything unrelated to SHINee is irrelevant to me XD

See me drooling at SHINee World B(3rd from bottom), Lucifer B(8th from bottom) and Replay Limited Edition(the top one T__T)